ii want to post manymnay things up here. but ii dont know how to put all my feelings in words.


just today many things has happen between us.
you've dug out every single things, including th pass.
ii know im a lousy girlf to begin with.
but you've always tell me how wonderful ii am.
by trying to make you happy when you're sad ii hide my emotions just to make you happy.
ii have to pretend that everything seemed so normal.
even at home, sometimes school, esp home, when im sad ii still have to smile.
every time when something happen ii cant stop myself from crying.
you should know how weak ii am though ii might look strong on th outer surface.
who doesnt look strong on th outer surface?
yes ii know its my fault for making you not trusting me.
ii know its my fault but isnt that suppose to be th pass?
every time when there's a quarrel,
ii know ii know im th one who always start it. ii have many things to endure at home and in relationship.
im breaking down real soon.
ii have alot more to type and say.
but ii got to go.
thanks whoever that have cheer me up asking me not to cry just now.

ii still cant accept th fact that J died.