why th hell must this happen?
making cry again and again. forcing me to break with you, since you dont want break then why keep forcing me?
when you walked away ii wanted to stop you, but ii never cause im afraid that ii would cry. so forget it, when ii called you your phone was off(low batt) ii went to look for you ii really did though ii know its too late. break and then pretend nothing has happen before? ii cant okays! so what if breaking up can make us feel less pain, you leaving me is even more pain than us being together. but it seems like you dont care eh. ii have saved you many times, again adn again cause its my fault, and now you're making yourself dead which is more not possible for me to save you. ii know you want me to be happy but this isnt th way. you yourself know that im weak, so why are you doing this to me? what th hell did ii do to deserve all this? how ii wish ii could just vanish into air and never appear again.

iiloveyou and thats forever okays. remember our plans ahead?
im sorry for everything.
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9months& still counting!