didnt know things will come t end so soon. was hoping for th better on 31st night. but things became worst. whats worst is ii dun even know th reason that we break, maybe ii know. people have been pouring salt over my wound today, in school. actually didnt wanna mention t anybody but sweetheart started all th talk bout him in DTE and blablabla. emotions are alrdy abit unstable by thn. second person came saying th same thing. tears are alrdy dropping controlled . third person came. holy shit :/ kala's lesson ended tears drop. awhile only, home that's when finally everything started flowing lik tap water.
this is how things were,
31stoct afternoon , he texted me saying who wouldyou choose me or your ex,
Me: was obviously you if not ii wont stead w you right?
Him: then would you stop contacting your ex for me?
Me: yeah ii would. why? you doubt my luv for you?
no reply.
Me: you doubting my love for you ?
and another few more long messages wont be typing everthing out here,
no reply at all. mood spoiled. duhh obviously.
night called him.
no one answers, followed by a message dun call mi i no mood.
everything seems t be lik my fault eh ?
1stnov, no message was being sent t me.
texted him replied w all one word one word. ii even had t ask him please reply thn he would.
at last ard 9 plus ii told him ii find it hard t communicate w him now.
no reply till 10 exactly.
phone vibrated. message from him at first was kinda finally ii no need t say please reply and he replied was happy at first. open and read th message.
th message says :
lets end it here . its impossible for us to go on . sry .
Me: but at least you've gotta let me know why right ?
no reply no reply and no reply.
everything seems t be lik my fault when ii did nothing . wth.

anyways thanks for being w me for th pass 20 days . ii felt your luv kaiire and concern. ii still saved that message that you sent t me which ii typed out in blog. three days after th msg was sent YOU ended everything.showed swthrt th message he ask me why lik that. wat you expect me t say ? all ask me why lik that why lik that. what you people expect em to say?

thanks t everybody who cheered me up.(though im still sad) ii nvr cried for a guy ii stead for such short period before. ii duno why th hell ii luv you so much also. only th person you love can hurt you very deep. and thats wat happened t me. hope you'll find someone better or we might patch ? doubt so. is crying able t solve everything ? no but why am ii still crying ? ii cant even fucking control my tears . nbrminds say so much also no use.